Darian

Life is pretty funny.

Not funny “haha” but funny “oh wow what the fuck”.

I met you when I needed you most.

I loved you when I needed you close.

Sometimes I wonder if prom night was prophecy.

If I spent all night crying so that in the end, you’d love me.

If in the end, it didn’t even matter because you loved me regardless.

It’s funny.

And yet, as I laid under you, I wondered

“Am I good enough?

Am I speaking of my ex like a god and you a servant?

Am I just another warm body to you?

Do you love me?”

It’s funny.

All these thoughts swirled around for about a year.

We yelled.

And we argued.

And we fought like two stubborn mules.

It’s funny.

I called you my sunshine because you lit up my life.

But also because you set my heart ablaze

With love

And with anger.

It’s funny.

We talked about breaking up so many times that it sounded like a good old joke.

And sometimes all you can do is laugh.