March 29, 2020

I'm 19

And nothing has changed.

I'm 19

And still feel like I have this weight on my chest.

I'm 19

And still have the ringing in my ears

Like water in my ears.

My brain is leaking

Memories

Intrusive thoughts

Words I want to say

About myself and others.

My throat is clogged

With all the food

I shove down my throat

To silence words.

My head hurts

And

I'm 19

And nothing has changed.