so lucky to have you

I would describe myself as a needy person.

I need attention, love, things to be said and done a certain way.

I need more than the bare minimum.

So when you said anyone would be lucky to have me,

I didn’t believe you.

I think you see a completely different side of me.

Not the side I want you to see necessarily, but the side that is truly who I am.

I don’t like myself when I’m with other people.

I thought I didn’t like myself around you either.

But

You make me feel something.

Something different.

I feel comfortably anxious around you.

You make me so nervous.

But

It’s the adult version of butterflies in my stomach.

I feel less confident around you.

But

I feel like I can rule the world when I’m around you.

In short,

You make me feel conflicted.

It’s always been that way.

Now we’re in a situation where

Conflict is all we have.

I tell you the same thing.

That any girl would be lucky to have you.

But to have that conflict?

To have those butterflies in my stomach?

To not have all my needs met, yet be okay with that?

Well,

Any girl would be lucky to have you.

But

I would be the luckiest.